Steve's Soulshop

Failure is bitter. Failure is painful. Failure is cruel.

But yet, how do you define failure? Bad results? Broken relationship? Low pay job? Or just simply not doing good enough?

You don't need a person to tell you that you are a failure. I believe when you constantly can't achieve what you aiming in life, you will self-appointed yourself as a "failure". We will continue to be a failure, until you reach one point in your life, you will tell yourself, "Man, I can't be like this anymore. I don't wanna to screw up my whole life. Enough is enough!!"

However but saying just that is not enough, you need determination which is not easy. Maybe along the way to change, you will repeat the same mistake. You will tell yourself, why you want to torture yourself. Then you will be the oldself, continue to be a failure. Don't give up, stay on to it, with faith inside yourself, with the support from friends and family, you can eventually success and turnover a new leaf.

I went back home last week, when my dad fetched my back home, he said, " Today go here and there, petrol already cost RM30, dunno today got earn that much or not..." I know he's working very hard for the family, I feel bad because I never try that hard. That's why I want to change, to be someone that he will be proud of...

I am going through a very hard time in my life now, sometimes I am very depress and I feel like giving up. But thanks to those who had been supporting me, with passion in my heart and the love from you all, everything will be fine. I hope.

When there is a will, there is a way. So, if you are reading this, let's hope for the best. Wish you all will achieve what you want in life.

"Life is not the amount of breaths you take its the moments that take your breath away." This is one of my favorite quote that inspire me throughout my life.

I am not a big fan of "life" before this, I never really enjoy my life, therefore I never learn to appreciate people around us. Till something happened in my life, then I only realised how naive and stupid I was before. Yet, regrets bring nothing, but only sorrow and sadness. Mistake plays important role in life, it will help you to become a better person. No matter how big was the mistake, do not ever hate your past, because of what you had gone through, you are better person that before.

Before this, I am a person that so passionate about my life. However, people tends to forget who they are and take the wrong path in life. And I was one of them. But thanks to Orientation, it help me to recall who I am and who I was before. I stopped being so obsess with "Dota" where I spend 19 hours of my day playing it. I stopped smoking. Thanks to all passionate OCs, without you all, I won't able to find myself back.

Right now, I just want to live my life to the fullest. Yesterday was totally awesome. From supper end up in the Port Dickson. Sharing and listening by the seaside, with the accompany of moonlight and the sea waves, not to forget the guitar sound and laughters of everyone. Glad that you guys able to make it. Thanks to Alvin, Ken, and Chui Chui. Without you guys driving, yesterday might just be a dream. To those who came, let the passion continue to live in your heart, most importantly, share the passion with people around you!~

The art of life is to live in the present moment, and to make that moment as perfect as we can by the realization that we are the instruments and expression of God Himself.

How many times you speak what you actually feel?
How many times you actually do what you should do?
But....
How many times you say something that you don't mean to say it?
How many times you do something that you shouldn't do at all?

Life is too short for all this craps.

Be true to yourself and others. You actually will see and feel more that anyone else. Nothing beats the feeling sitting with friends talking and sharing as it there is no tomorrow. Nothing is gonna take away the moment of truth, the moment of happiness.

If you haven't try to do this, you probably should wanna start now.

p/s: Old town haven't been so nice as it is. Passion will continue to live in you, as long it comes from our heart.

It had been a long time I didn't write anything here. I just finished being an OC for the MMU Orientation Program for 2008/2009 and it had already became the best time of my life. Through this orientation, I truly benefit a lot from this event. There are a lot of joys and tears throughout this orientation, the feeling of this is indescribable , when 74 OCs shared the love and passion together without differentiation, discrimination of races and religion.

From a stranger to become friend, the feeling is truly awesome. The one week binding camp really bond us together as one. The passion that live inside my heart really helped me to go through all this, even though when I am tired or sicked. I will not forget the moment we all stood up and defended the passion inside us, the moment we spoke out loud the what passion really meant to us. I will never forget the moment we are having tons of fun during the water surprise and even the moment we shared the story of our life without actually care what others will think about us. The moment the tears dropped when we hug each other so tight and told them what we felt towards them. Nothing, nothing is gonna take that away from me.

We all know that nobody is perfect and nobody do no mistake. During the orientation, we really felt this and we try to improve ourself and learn from mistakes. We might not really confident with what we are doing, but everyone showed the effort and guided each each other to go through this. We managed to show the meaning of passion to the freshies. My tears almost come out when everyone shouted "passion!!!" together, because we been through a long long way to achieve this. The moment the music starts playing, we will stand on our feet and dance like crazy, sing like crazy, as it there is no tomorrow. Numa numa, butterfly, 16 steps, Permata Dunia, Those Were The Day, Freshie's song really brought a lot of fun for us, what will Orientation be without all this?

A big thank you and hug to everyone involved in this, thanks to you all for making this event possible. To those supportive friends (you know who you are), the moment shared with you is totally amazing. What can I can say now, why it ended so fast? The end of this orientation is the beginning and the blossom of new friendship, where we called it the beginning of the end. Please, please let the passion continue to live inside us, please let think of what we had been through when you are facing problem, shout the passion out loud and you shall be fine or even feel awesome.

Once and OC, always an OC. Continue to live on your life with passion, no matter what you are doing, it will drive you towards the destination of this journey of life. There are no mountain to high to climb, there are no sea too deep to explore. I shall end it here.

May the passion burn in our heart. Thank you for everything and we should totally hang out more.

Love,
OC Steve

Call life is cruel. Because it never give you second chance. I don't know who create the phrase "second chance", if I know him, I would had told him not to create the term that is not going to happen in life, I would had told him not to create something will mislead people in life. There is a reason why I said so, read on if this topic interested you.

Because of the term "second chance", some people did the wrong thing in life. They killed people, they took drugs, they speed, they betrayed friends and they thought they actually could get a second chance. What a naive human being. They didn't know second chance is not as good as the first chance where they going to make the decision. They didn't know second chance come with price. Let me illustrate this situation with a simple example. "Anthony decided to take drugs after persuaded by this friends. He never know he will get caught and when he knew, it's too late. So he begged for a second chance. He got it, but people still see him as a bad person who took drugs before. So, he failed to do what he desire in life, but he never take drugs anymore in his life." You have a choice to make here, call it a second chance, or accept the fact there is no second chance.

" Those who not appreciate life is not deserved a life."
This is the ideology that make "Saw 3" got the first place in the US boxoffice movie last week, maybe this coming few weeks. This story is about how the "Jigsaw" catch those people who is not appreciate their life and give them a second chance to live their life again by making a choice, maybe losing an eye, or hand, or kill a person. Call it a second chance, or call it a game that is not fair. Not a fair game because they let you live, but you have to lose an eyes, a hand, leg, etc. Call it a second chance, because only by making you losing something then only you will realise how important life is. I love this movie personally because I think this movie educated people how to appreciate life although in a cruel way and this movie made the point that second chance comes with price.

Live your life like there is no existence of second chance. Live your life to the fullest and you will have nothing to regret for the rest of your life. Life, ultimately, the best gift from God.

p/s: This post is to all who wish to live a new life, who wish to have a turning point in life. And to myself, a reminder to self to appreciate life.

"Waltzing Through Time" is the theme of the prom night that I helped to organised before this. I like this theme, it's just so beautiful, dancing slowly through the time, thing that we always hope we can do in life.

Currently I am waltzing through time, I am in Malacca now. It's good to be back here, I feel like coming home. I feel like this is where I should belong. I came here to study with Sara, meanwhile to refresh the memory when I did my foundation here. Nothing much changed here, people here are still friendly like usual, no much changes to the building here, expect the Ixora apartment already occupied with people and I saw some new faces of June intake freshies.

I miss the food here. I miss studying here in the nice library. I miss hanging out with friends nearby the Southern Fried Chicken. And I miss some of my friend here. Not to forget to mention, Abg Amin from Soul Grift. I miss his voice, and I am listening to the George Michael album that I bought just now. No doubt, abg Amin voice is definately sound better than George Michael when he sang the Careless Whisper. Hope he is fine with his new destiny.

I used to say this, "No matter how far you go, no matter how high you climb; however never never forget where you belong." Because in case you lost yourself, you can back to the place that reminds you who are. I never know I lost myself so bad until I stepped into this old place. I remember how talkative I was, how motivated I was. I lost my spirit, I lost my determination. I am glad I came, I am glad I found back myself. But it doesn't mean I don't like changes, just that I think I would be a better person if I am the old Steve.

Finding the balance point is crucial in life. Whether it's between studies and entertainment; family and friends; career and family or love and hate. Finding the balance point will help you success in life, without have to neglect both parties. Sometimes, giving too much is not always good things to do. You have to balance up. Remember this, give and take, give and take.

I gotta end here. Let me continue to waltz, through the time...